Eeeek !!!

Eeeek !

Doctor visit tomorrow. Hope I get a good report. My doctor is going to be shocked at my weight loss! Hope my A1C is within the acceptable range. Sadly I have no pants that fit, so I have to wear an old pair. They are so big I have to pull them up and tuck them under my boobs and use a belt.

Getting ready for Halloween. This weekend Joey and I decorated the yard. We finished Grim! Even Dad wanted a pic with Grim! The cemetery is looking good, the light wasn't hitting the area right so the pics did not turn out well. Hopefully I will be able to get a good cemetery pic and post it soon.

GRIM - Joey built fence. He did a great job!



DAD & GRIM



I experimented with a new zombie look…not sure I’m liking it. The skin flap is okay but the raw meat thingy looks a little too rounded. Looks like pizza to me. Maybe next time I will skip the skin flaps and bloddy pieces and just go for older dead.



Me...DEAD!  Not contacts in eyes, just my eyes rolled back.


Still working on Joeys look. He wants half his face painted as a skull and other half his exposed meat. (That does not sound right, no matter which way I phrase it). The skull make-up is killing me. I just can't seem to get it right.

Scarowinds and Renaissance Festival

I had a fantastic weekend. Friday we (Hubby Joey, Sis Dana, nephew Corey, niece Haley, cousins Tia and Jesse) spent the evening at Carowinds Amusement park, which during October becomes SCAROWINDS! (scare-o-winds).

The teens drove us crazy during the ride there. Seems no one understood the concept of ‘inside voices’. But we survived the ride!

Once there WE HAD A FRIGGIN BLAST!

Joey rode a few rides with the teens. Than we all went through two haunted mazes together. A frightened Dana spent several hilarious minutes running from a clown! Than the teens dumped us and took off on their own. So Dana, Joey and I hit five more haunted mazes, a foggy cemetery and a haunted rave type thing. We screamed, we laughed, and we realized our old knees didn’t like all that walking! It was so much fun I want to go again! And again! I did not have a funnel cake or cinnabons or even fudge. I was good and did not eat anything sold at the park.



Me, a creature, and Joey




Left to right: Tia, Haley, Corey, Dana, me, Jesse



Joey and I made it back home sometime after 1 a.m., went to bed around 2-ish, slept a tad than we were up at 6 a.m. to go to the Renaissance Festival! We met up with cousin Jon, aunt Cathy and her boyfriend Wayne. We were soon separated; we got ditched again when Joey and I went to get me a new puzzle ring wedding band. After losing some weight my four band puzzle ring kept falling off. It was a size 6, my new SIX band puzzle ring is a size 4 ½ !!! It has taken me seven years to figure out how to solve the 4 band puzzle now I have a 6 band!

Joey and I had a great time. Walked around, saw a few comedy acts, and Joey looked at a whole lot of boobs! Left at five, got home sometime after six, and crashed on the couch around 8!

The ride to Scarowinds



That was long yellow brick road...



Blast from the past

Blast from the past.
I have had a few bad weeks. I have not gained but I have not lost. I have let my fears get to me again. But I am determined to push down those fears and continue on my journey to become healthier.

I decided to do a little comparison between the old me and the current me, to see if it would help me focus. I believe it has worked.

I know I still have a long weigh (ha ha) to go. But looking at how far I have come has helped me feel renewed and determined.

Me in 2008 and me now. I’m just a tad dead in the current picture, but it’s a slimmer dead!

My Husband Joey

I met Joey in late 1995. We moved in together May 1996. Our son Matthew was born March 1997. Joey and I married 1998. We are ‘that old married couple’.

I love that man so much. He is my rock. When we met I already had a small child. (Rachel. Now 18) That did not scare him off like it did most young men. He has helped raise her and support her.  Joey was there for me when Michael, my brother, was murdered. I was there for him when his Aunt Annalee passed. She raised him after his parents died. We have had many good times and we have had our share of bad times. We thought we had been through it all.

Until Aug 19, 2005. Our Mattman collapsed during practice on the football field. He passed away. He was only 8 years old. Joey, Rachel and I were heartbroken. We still are. We leaned on each other but we still had to learn how to deal with the loss in our own way. Matthew left a hole that will never be filled.

We heard many stories of how most couples divorce after a death of a child. We beat the odds and are still together.  We both have our good days and we have our “Matthew days”.  Joey is a good man, he loved me when I didn’t even love myself.

Joey likes the big chicks. Oh if you ask him he will deny it. But he does. So now I must share my biggest fear with you. I am terrified Joey will leave me if I lose a lot of weight. It is a fear that has held me back for many years. Joeys assures me he loves me no matter what I weigh. But I still have that fear. I always joke my first husband left me because I got fat and my second husband will leave me if I get skinny.

But I also feared if I didn’t lose the weight I would die young and leave him all alone. Then he would find some other  chick to replace me.  Which would piss me off; he is supposed to be miserable without me. If he found another I would have to haunt him the rest of his life. I don’t intend to be the Casper the friendly ghost type of ghost.

So now I am taking a gamble on this wonderful man still loving me after the weight loss. J

Zombies ! Run !

27 pounds lost so far!

Yesterday was a hectic crazy day. Did not do so well on my eating plan. Ate things I should not have but did manage to keep my portion sizes small.

I spent the early part of the day getting ready for the Modern Film Fest Zombie Walk. I vended there, selling zombie dolls I make.

Took some time to apply my zombie make-up. Three hours. But most of that time was spent waiting for the liquid latex to dry. I had my hair up in rollers so after the make up was done all I had to do was take out rollers and tease hair a little to make tangled and messy. I was pleased with the look...just the right amount of dead.

This is me...dead.
Had to go show my dad. I scared him but I did manage to get him to take a picture with me.

Of course Stalker Zombie Joe (my hubby) went with me.

Joey's make-up took 30 minutes to do. Because last week we used liquid latex and tissue to make the piece on his face. All I had to do was apply and paint it with ooey gooey vaseline mixed with stage make-up.

We had fun. Hung out with some great zombies! Saw Elvis and Michael Jackson (as zombies). Sold a few zombie dolls. Donated a two headed doll for the grand prize of the zombie costume contest. Joey really enjoyed watching the belly dance group perform.

Once home Joeys make-up was off in five seconds mine took a little over 30 minutes.

I'm very excited because next year I will be a much slimmer zombie ! ! !

A Little Motivation

Ok....I will admit. I have had a rough couple of weeks. I still followed my Weight Watchers plan...sorta. I was not as strict as I should have been. Here is what happened, at first I was losing weight so fast and that kept me motivated. Than the weight loss slowed, a lot. I had a very tough time staying focused.

But even though I did not track my points as well as I should I still made healthy food choices.

So today was the weigh in. I was shaking as I got on the scales. My fear was my weight had stayed the same or worse it had crept up a tad. I step on the scales, with dread I look down at the number....25 pounds lost !!!

Hell yeah! 25 pounds!!! 25 freaking long-gone-never-to-be-seen-again pounds! Talk about some motivation. Now I feel ready to jump back on the program 100%. I have also discovered that even when not obsessing with points and portions I have adapted to a healthy way of eating and it is becoming second nature to me.

EXERCISE....Be gone you demon!

There is a demon in my life. It is the ‘I hate exercise demon’ that possess me.

But do I really want to exorcise the exercise demon?

No. Not really. Not yet anyway.

Diets in the past have failed me or I have failed them. One reason this happens is I try to change my eating habits and begin an exercise program at the same time. Then I obsess with them. It is the all or nothing attitude I have. 

So this time I will focus on my eating habits first. Once they become second nature to me I will add exercise in. Oh I do walk a few laps at work during lunch and hike every now and then but it is not what I consider  a exercise program.

I do not like running plus it is dangerous when you have big boobs. Plus my hips are bad.

Walking for long periods of time just gets boring. Even with my mp3 player blasting some My Chemical Romance.

Biking. Nope. My balance is not really good right now.

Team sports. I am not a team player.

Dancing. Oh I love dancing but I’m not going somewhere and dance as big as I am. Plus the bad hip thing again.

So exercise is not on my agenda right now.

I know some of you are saying ‘you can’t not exercise while on a weight loss plan’. Well I say…bite me. At least I’m doing something to improve my health. Maybe one day I will add exercise to my life but right now I’m doing what is right for me.